I guess humans are always greedy. I want more than this, I want every single attention from him. Yesterday was fine, but it make me felt like he was wasting his time on me cause his phone was ringing the whole time. Suddenly, I don't know if I should keep trying for this or should I just give up. I think he's making it official soon, if I give up halfway wouldn't it be stupid? I can't get use to people treating me nice, at this point of time I'm so used to people treating me like fuck. Would you want a handsome that clubs but doesn't really to go out, likes to suprise you OR a fat one, likes to go out, still sweet but doesn't suprises? I don't know lah, I'm always confused and I'm acting like a kid. I need to grow up and start thinking long-term. Actually I would still rather F.